A New Chapter

2018 feels just like yesterday, the year did run fast and just like I did on the 31st morning of 2017, today  I woke up reflecting on the past year. I even went through the cross over post “End of A chapter” reflecting on how I applied the lessons I learnt form the year before and the possibilities the new year holds for me.

The past few nights leading to today came with a lot of mixed feelings. 2018 was a very intense year for me, it was the year of building the right foundations in terms of my Spirituality, Career, Business, Physical health and of course my Emotional health. I would be lying if I say that it has been a walk in the park, but I must say that in setting the right foundation in the last year, I have experienced grace that has enabled me dig and set these foundations in place. However in the process of digging you find that more often than not, you are covered in dirt and although you might not be seeing the skyscraper yet, you can see the ground on which it will stand; in the consciousness that the true architect of life has already designed your master piece estate. The ability to venture through this trying process is what I define as Hope and Faith.

Were there times in the year where I panicked about the future? –Yes!

Before one embarks on the journey of building a foundation, there is most likely an idea what the final result of the structure you aim to build will look like, this enables you know the kind of foundation to build -The higher the building, the deeper the foundation. Sometimes I found myself getting anxious over the thought of the final result when all I could see physically was the earth going further beneath as opposed to blocks coming up. Times like that can make you feel like your not making any progress, you find that your spending a lot of time and resources and you still can’t quite see results; I’m taking all these notes but I still haven’t successfully written a chapter in the book. To be honest this brought about a lot of anxiety and panic, but as the year comes to an end I began to see that I had achieved more that I thought. Through God’s grace, I had built a solid foundation to take the skyscraper. I understood that there is a time for everything; a time to sew, a time to groom and a time to harvest; a time to dig; a time to built and even a time to furnish.

Were there certain goals I set but could not meet? -Yes!

Just like my last point, due to my anxiety there were times I set goals out of time. There were times I wanted to build on lands without setting a foundation and I achieved nothing. I learnt that you cannot cheat the process, a foundation must be built 1st and I did not fail to achieve my goals for the year, but I did set goals ahead of time. As I reflect on this now, I am filled with gratitude; as those moments and goals where only in preparation for the years to come, they were visionary and not a lack of achievement and I am excited to see them start materialising in the new year.

Were there certain foundations that did not take? -Yes!

Like I mentioned earlier, you can’t build without setting a foundation; and the higher a building goes the deeper its foundation. Yes there are times when we try to plant the right seeds in a land that cannot accommodate it, the climate might be wrong for your seeds/ plants or the soil not just right. It is important to know when a land will not take and move on. I learnt that when you fail to pay attention to the foundation you set and you go ahead to build, you might find that the building would come crumbling down on you. It is better to know early which land can take the buildings you’ve set for your future, those that can hold your dreams and aspirations and are solid enough to materialise with you. It was one of the most important lessons I learnt that although something might look nice, rich and desirable, it is always important that when that thing is put to the test, we are careful to observe and realise wether it keeps you rooted or if it lacks stability.

Were there times I felt like giving up? -Yes!

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End of a Chapter

Wow Wow Wow! it is the last day of the year 2017 and this year has been very eventful for me. so much has happened this year in my life most especially this last quarter, that as I wake up this morning and go through the events of this year, I can only be grateful to God for all the blessings, the lessons and the growth so far.

In 2017 God thought me these things and more:

  • Patience – I found myself and family in a position that I was quite unfamiliar with, but never the less we kept our trust in God and worked hard and consistently and just in the last few days, the rewards started to spring forth
  •  Success – As you know I was at the Nigerian Law School this year, and frankly this project in my self development was not a walk in the park. It came with all forms of mental strain, some form of emotional imbalance, self doubts and much more. However God was consistently ensuring me that in other to be successful, I must push pass all the limitations that appear before me and constantly work hard with faith and I would conquer. I am glad to say that today I am a barrister of the Supreme Court Of The Federal Republic Of Nigeria.
  • Love – I realised that although I can be proud and protective of myself, I have the power to bring healing to the lives of people I meet because of how much love I carry. I realise that the world we live in is one where people do not understand, or might have lost the knowledge of this kind of love. However God keeps a few of us out here to show the world that this love does exist and he still loves us even more.
  • Self worth – for the past 7 years of my life I have experienced so much that has formed part of the breaking and remoulding of the woman I am. The beginning of this process was primed with an immense uncertainty of my identity and as time went by I grew to understand who I was and  the day to day execution of my purpose. However this has come with some challenges, for instance people trying to take advantage of kindness, with people showing disappointment with the fact that one could show vulnerability in other to give others comfort, in people’s inability to appreciate your worth and blessings in their lives. However I have learnt against all odds that although the world has a lot of negativity and unhappiness, I must continue to bring joy, love and happiness and in order not to lose this identity of mine, I must understand the greatness in me and fuel myself with those that see, appreciate and treasure such greatness; only then will I be strong enough to heal the world that lacks same. One can only give what they have, therefore if you do not consume positivity you cannot give positivity. It is the circle of life. We should always understand that we only deserve what we can give. If you give love and positivity that is exactly what you deserve nothing less for you to continue to give same; if you give hurt and negativity unfortunately that is what you would receive and that is all you will be able to give. You can start to change the pattern of your life by learning how to receive love and positivity so that you may be able to give same.
  • Growth – As I write this, I am also preparing new strategies on how to develop myself and transform my world. I must live my foot print in the sands of time and one moment at a time, one day at a time, one month at a time, one year at a time; I shall evolve and the effect would be seen all around me 
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